Hi ladies,

I seem to be always complaining and that's not me!!!

I feel like out journey is coming to an end with an acceptance it may never happen for us. We have been trying for over a year now. We were successful in March but unfortunately I lost the baby in May. Completely devastated. I've had to hear about both my sister and my best friends pregnancy both of whom are due very close to the time our baby was due. I dont talk about our miscarriage any more to anyone. It's just an internal battle.

We began to try again after our miscarriage but we've had no luck my ovulation is all over the place and my cycles have gotten long. I was a little bit hopeful this month but we had no luck. I feel so stressed out and like there is something wrong with me that everyone else can have their babies but here we are with all the love in the world to give and no baby.

I've let ttc consume my every thought, I wake up every single day and it hits me what we lost. I feel like I am only getting older and our chances are less and less. Maybe its time to accept it