Venting

I love my boyfriend but I feel like I’m falling out of love or already have.. when he’s working I’m happy soon as he gets home I’m annoyed. I forgave him so much in the past and it still affects me. I don’t know what to do. He’s not the type you can talk to. If I say anything he will just think it’s someone else in the picture. That’s how his mind works.. weekends are worst when his kids are over they curse & I don’t like that. When I express myself he doesn’t care.. say it’s his kids which is true but they don’t know how to do anything for them self & they like 6 7 & 8. Also Im the main one making sure they eat when they are over here so I should have a say so. & also the mom doesn’t allow them to curse and the 8 year old has failed 3rd grade because he’s bad already so why influence cursing? He said they can curse around him but no where else. Lol but gets mad when I voice my opinion and btw it’s my house. ☺️ I just don’t know what to do... it’s like I love him but I’m miserable. When I do “ try “ to leave I get lonely and just give in you can say. I know I’ll be better off without him. He doesn’t do anything for me really & we split bills. That’s IT. I do everything myself really. If I ask him for money I give it back lol