Hard time feeling connected

Anyone else struggling to feel connected to this baby? With my first, I was so into everything. I researched and looked everything up, was constantly out buying clothes and things for her room. I was dreaming of how her nursery would look.

This time around, I feel almost hesitant. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m now chasing a 4 year old, or because I have a more mentally demanding job. We also recently moved and I couldn’t even get excited over finding out that this baby was a girl because I was stressed about making our new house our home. Maybe it’s that we don’t have to buy the new things this time around?

Any tips on how to feel more connected? I’m hoping at my 21 week ultrasound, I’ll feel better. Just a very tired mom over here feeling very guilty.