Itching for a romantic relationship so bad it makes me cry

I just want something real. I've been single for 8 or 9 months now. My previous exs for the lack of a better word... sucked. One was abusive. One was not romantic. Others were not empathetic or understanding and ive never been with someone ive been physically attracted to because i always try to go the whole "looks dont matter its the personality" route. But I'm sick of compromising i want the whole freaking package already! Im trying to work on myself before I get into something serious again but oh my gosh do I ever crave someone. Ive always been a hopeless romantic. I read romance books and romance web comics. I am constantly fantasizing lately. I just want to be held and touched and loved like I've always wanted. Life is so unfair 😭😭 I know I come across whiney but I really don't care. Just thought I'd put my thoughts out there lmao.