So scared 😱

On June of 19 was one of my worse days of my life I was in children’s hospital with my twin boys for 2 weeks 😭😭 I lost my kids due to me leaving my kids with my 35 year old sister she was watching my kids while I was at the hospital with my twins well she left my 2 and 4 year old home by alone since they are my kids I got charged with child endangerment cps was called they removed my kids my case is closed I lost legal custody so cps is no longer involved I know it wasn’t the best decision but the day the judge took legal custody of my world my mind in another direction and I went to party with my friends we got drunk and I slept with a guy I got fixed after I had my twins in 18 because I didn’t want anymore I’ve been keeping it quiet but I am 16 weeks pregnant I am so scared that this baby will be taking away since I didn’t get my other kids back I am going back to fight for my other kids once I save up money to get a great attorney I don’t know what the laws are in my state (Ohio). So I’m wondering how would I tell the people that has my kids and how would I tell my kids? My friends thinks I’m already showing but I don’t think so because I’m a bigger woman Please no rude comments