First time posting ladies ☺️

I’m currently in between trying to conceive and waiting to conceive, I’ve just started my career in Dental Assisting and my current partner is getting his business started and wants kids bc he doesn’t have any but I do have two , 9 and 4 🥰 I’m confident about having kids with him that’s not the issue but timing . I’m 3 years older than him and he’s very mature but again want kids meaning maybe 2 or 3 himself 🙃 it’s a beautiful thing and I love the idea but throughout life idk why I’ve always felt the need to receive validation from others mainly my mom , I feel like I would disappointment her by going backwards in her eyes and it’s the last I want to do but I also feel like I’m holding myself back from making adult decisions with my partner and it could cause issues . By the way it has before in my past relationship but not the reason for the breakup . Idk ladies I guess I want to hear from someone different that I don’t know 🤷🏾‍♀️