Sitting here at 25 thinking what is my life...

I am not at all where I want to be in life. I see people living with their partners or boyfriends...having kids...getting houses. I’m sitting here like how do they do it?

I hate to be negative but I am still living at home with my family and have a dead end job that is just so emotionally draining working with individuals with disabilities. Not to mention I make no money which is never fun.

I want to just start my life but I don’t know how. I just want to fast forward and live at home with my husband and kids but its like how do I get there? I ’m constantly looking for some type of new job literally every single day but with the pandemic it’s tough.

My boyfriend still lives with his family and I know he wants to buy a house soon but he needs to pay off some loans and stuff first.

I just feel like a failure. The only thing that gets me excited in life is my paintings. I work with watercolors everyday and I’m trying to make it into a side hustle.

I’m saving money which is good while at home and have 9000 in the bank for when I move out and hoping to add more and more to that this year. I’m just confused as to how I people are doing it. I’m so desperate to just run away somewhere far. I feel like this all the time