So called friends

When you’re going through some of the worst things in your life and your so called friends don’t EVER check up on you, even a how’s your terminal husband doing? Nothing.

I’m not surprised at this point by most people.

It’s pathetic. But also shows me what kind of people they really are.

Cause guess what, cancer is not contagious, asking someone how they’re doing isn’t going to hurt them. I get cancer makes people uncomfortable, especially when it’s as severe as his but for fucks sake.

All of this is so lonely and having to hold my emotions in basically all the time is so hard some days.

I’m not even sure if I’m sad about things, I mainly feel so much anger. I don’t show it and I don’t talk about it but I can feel it.