I’m so upset😢

So I’m 27 weeks and I’m going into preterm labor. The doctors told me that I might be giving birth tonight. I text my baby dad to let him know he said he “ I can’t I have my son with me I’m in Houston at a friend grandma funeral and his mom is at the lake so I’m watching him.” He also said he can make it tomorrow if me and baby wait but who would wait in his terms??!? I’m over here thinking. You live with your other child’s house you get to spend time with him 24/7 see him EVERYDAY went to his birthing experience but you can’t go to mine??. Is it selfish of me for wanting to cut him off for not being here for the important event and the fact that the baby will have to be in the NICU. I’m over here bawling my eyes out. Like I’m not bashing on the other child but still he can’t even call his baby mom and tell her “hey I have to go and be there for here”😓 this is the last text he sent . “No she doesn’t have service.. and like I said I doubt she would end her trip to help me for you” that rubs me the wrong way...