Am I broken?

After years of being really healthy and feeling good, all of a sudden it feels like every health issue I’ve ever had in my past has resurfaced.

At the start of the year, I decided to try to get in better shape. I’ve always been a fitness nut but I wanted to see how much I could push it. I was working double shifts at work bc of the pandemic (healthcare worker). I was on my feet all day at work, trying to keep my fitness routines going, eating my normal healthy diet, but I gained 15lbs pretty fast and I started crashing really hard (nearly passing out) after any amount of physical activity, even just a short walk. My stomach was acting up too.

I went to the doctor and found my thyroid is not producing enough hormone, my adrenals are not producing enough cortisol and require supplementation. My acid reflux, abdominal pain, bowel issues all resurfaced after years of feeling fine. The doctor thinks I have an issue with sulfur so she suggested a low sulfur diet which is the strictest diet on Earth! The doctor also believes I have a motility issue in my esophagus as well as a bacterial infection in my gut.

I also had major knee surgery last year, and it was feeling perfect for months now, and ALL of a sudden, the knee issues are back. I can’t really move it well again. My MRI is next week and I’m worried I need surgery again.

The Doc also discovered that I am not processing B vitamins properly. She believes I have a genetic mutation that causes me to not process folic acid specifically. I immediately said, “Wait - does that mean I can’t have kids?” And she said nothing. She just made an “I don’t know what to say,” type face.

I googled this genetic mutation, and chances of a baby surviving the first trimester are slim and if they do, it seems there’s a good chance for the baby to have neural defects like spina bifida.

I’m 33... and feel like I’m running out of time to have kids, and now I’m worried that I can’t even have children. And I feel like I can’t even THINK about having children bc I’m too broken. Would it even be fair to even try to have kids? With all these issues, is it even fair to pass those genetics down? I’m devastated.