I’m about to lose it

My toddler woke up tonight because he fell off of his bed. (He’s not hurt at all. He didn’t even cry, he only cried when he wanted one of us to come in there.) He is wide awake and won’t go back to sleep. He screams unless I let him go and do his own thing, but also screams if I leave the room. So I’m stuck in here until he decides that he wants to go to sleep.

On top of that, one of my really good friends died of cancer tonight. We knew it was coming, but it’s so incredibly sad. She was a SAHM, and left behind a two year old and a husband who was her high school sweetheart.

I am so sad, and exhausted, and angry at the world, and this is just the icing on the cake.

I’m really just venting to keep myself from losing my mind.