My DH (39) and I (35) have been TTC since 2016. We had a miscarriage mid-2016 and while it was emotionally draining we thought we could easily get pregnant again. A year of no luck had us baffled so we went in for a routine fertility checkup where we devastatingly found out that DH’s spermanalysis was so poor that she immediately referred us to a fertility doctor.

The initial consult was disheartening, he recommended we skip immediately to <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> because DH’s spermanalysis was only .5 ml volume and 100% abnormal morph. (I’ll post a picture of his initial report). We had an egg retrieval Oct 2018 (six good looking embryos!) but due to some other circumstances had to put egg transfer on the back burner.

I found out I was pregnant naturally (what!) Feb 2019 but miscarried a few weeks later. It was rough on me mentally to fail at carrying to term twice, knowing that because of his sperm I shouldn’t have gotten pregnant at all. We eventually decided to hold off on egg transfer until early 2020 and then Covid hit and everything was pushed back again.

On August 17th I got a faint positive on a cheapie strip and just about passed out. I backed it up with a FRER the next day and got a pretty dark line. We were nervous but I was feeling somewhat positive. On August 21st I started to spot bright red. By late evening it had cycled several times between bright red and dark brown, and it stopped and started multiple times between nothing and almost enough to wear a party liner. The next morning I woke up to a heavy flow. I cried all weekend.

I scheduled an appointment with my regular doctor for 9/3 to ask him to screen me for lupus (my sister has it). The nurse had taken my vitals and health history (including my miscarriage a couple of weeks earlier) already but he did it again and then told me that he was referring me for an urgent gynecologist appointment because he believed that I was possibly still pregnant (haha, okay) so he didn’t want to do anything further until they looked at me.

The obgyn he referred me to was able to get me in the same day— thank god because I was irritated and emotional and the false hope I was feeling was making me feel awful. They wanted to do an ultrasound and after an hour of anxious waiting was feet up in stirrups being violated by a cold wand.

Lo and behold, six weeks one day pregnant with a baby with a *beautiful*, beating heartbeat. 😭 After four and a half years, <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, two miscarriages, and another round of bleeding that I was 100000% positive was a third miscarriage... somehow life has found a way.

I’m terrified of another miscarriage. He’s referring me to a high risk specialist due to my age, the previous miscarriages and the heavy bleeding. I have no idea what’s going on right now and I’m flying by the seat of my pants. Hopefully we can figure out what’s going on.