I woke up out of my sleep 4:30 am this morning already feeling stressed, overwhelmed and extremely emotional. It felt like my brain was on overload when I woke up. I couldn’t stop uncontrollably crying and feeling all the feelings which turns into anger for me and makes my emotional, mental state even worse. I’ve had depression, anxiety, ptsd, borderline personality disorder for most of my life and I’m learning to deal with it more and more as I get older but it feels like it’s starting to control me now. Irrational thinking a thinking that isn’t mine. I feel like I don’t even know who I am. I’m Just living for other ppl not for myself. I feel like The real me is trapped inside this body and mind that isn’t mine and I hate it so much.

I’ve tried everything.

How fine does the line have to get until it snaps?!

Walking away from everything and everyone I love and loves me seems more in focus now.

Releasing what I can’t hold in anymore. Sorry