The midwife called the team of nurses and doctors and everything in the room changed immediately.. my heart was racing and was completely pale and close to passing out ..

The doctor just asked me to keep pushing more strongly and i followed after 4 pushes my sweet baby girl came face up and in one complete push without crying...

My heart sank and was worried if she was ok.. they place her on my chest and then she saw straight into my eyes with her beautiful eyes and gave a warm smile ...

My world paused....

I forgot everything i have been through and my husband hugged both of us and couldnt stop crying ..

The doctr was busy down there , so i asked if everything was ok... she paused and said. " well !! not really " i tore completely from my vagina to rectum .. inside and outside tooo...

She had to do 40+ stitches to bring things to living condition.. she took a gud 1 hour to sew me up .. and by the time everything was over .. they pumped 3 more pumps of epidural , strted giving me medicine for fever and i started oxygen to help my breathing .. and the bleeding was soo bad i was so close to blood transfusion..

My husband was terrified (still is ) at the sight of my complete tear from vagina to rectum..

but i thank god for bringing my baby healthy into this world and would do this again n again in a heartbeat just for her smile ..

So after 30 hours of labor , 3 hours of pushing , and 40 stitches ..

My baby girl kamakshi ( a girl with beautiful eyes) is here with us happy and healthy ..