Ex church member

So I use to go to this church growing up my whole life well, two different ones but mainly this certain one. And I’ve come to realize over the past couple of years how much of a cult it is. My parents want me to follow all the rules but don’t themselves and my grandparents bug me about it all the time.

They don’t understand where I’m coming from bc if I explain everything to them and why I want to leave they just will tell me opposite and what I should do since I went my whole life. It’s very controlling and very much a cult.

I’m about to have a baby in March and my dad wants the baby to be blessed but I don’t want to ever go back to that church again. (Keep in mind I did express to my parents before I will not be doing certain church “rules/expectations” getting married and etc) and they still try to talk to me about as if I’ve never even said anything.

People of the church live in my apartment complex and I just hope they never come by, as they like to text my husband once in blue moon even tho he never responds.

My grandmother asked me recently if she’s bothering me about church stuff (and she knows she is) but she says it too nice that I can’t say no and gives me puppy dog eyes. Really?!?

She’s the type if I were to tell her she would be SO disappointed in me like she was when I got my nose pierced.

Keep in mind I’ve never lived w my grandparents and like they to parent me more than my parents ever have.

Very strict.

She once told my sister she wish I felt prettier without my nose ring and proceeds to ask me when I will take it out. My response was when I want.

They all know how I feel but yet continue to bagger me.

I’m sorry I had to get this off my chest, as it’s been bugging recently. I just wish that church would disappear from my life. The people in it seem to be like fruit flies and I’m the fruit. It’s very annoying.

Sorry for the long post 😓