Rant Ig😞Need Help

Hi Ladies! I Hope Everyone’s Doing Okay & Having A Wonderful Day❤️

I’m Not Looking For Any Shamming Please I Know I’m A Mess🥺I’m 20 Years Old With A 5 Year Old Toddler. I’m Currently Pregnant 32 Weeks With My Babygirl Who’s Measuring 2 Weeks Ahead & Weighs 5 Pounds.. (We Used A Condom & Took A Plan B When The Condom Broke). I Love My Kids Soooo Much.! They Are My Strength🤞🏼❤️They Mean The World To Me.. My Ex Boyfriend & I Co-Parent We Live Together With My Mom. He Been Switching Jobs (Due To His Health Problems). He Helps My Mom Pay Rent (Which Is Over 1,400 Dollars). I Try To Help My Mom Around The House & With Anything She Needs. I’m High Risk In This Pregnancy & I Been Feeling Alone.. My Ex Boyfriend Struggles To Keep Jobs Since He Has Seizures & Episodes Of schizoaffective.. Everyday He Has Seizures & He Has Episodes. I Help Him As Much As I Can. I Go To All Of His App’s & Help Him With Things He Needs Done On A Daily. I Barely Sleep Whatsoever I Help Him See A Psychiatrist & A Therapist. I Helped Him Find All The Jobs He Came Across & i Help Him Start Fresh Basically With New Clothes, His Social Security Card Etc. He’s 19 His Mother Is Abusive & Controlling She Threatened Him Me & Our Daughter. She Doesn’t Want Anything To Do With Him Since He Was 9🥺His Dad Is Not In His Life. He Was Living With His Sister But She Kicked Him Out & Told Him She Doesn’t Want Anything To Do With Him... She Also Made Threats To Me & Basically Said My Baby Is A Burden🥺Same Thing As Their Mother.. She Said Everything Is My Baby’s Fault. My Ex Is So Depressed.. I Try To Help Him But I’m So Stressed💔I Cant Work, I Care For My Toddler & I Am Pregnant & High Risk. I Been Taking Care Of My Son For 5 Years ALONE without Any Help From His Real Dad Side🥺I Am Broken.. I See A Therapist Already & i Do Trauma Therapy As Well.. I Been Doing Amazing With My Depression But Now I’m Back To Being Depressed.. I Been Feeling Like A Horrible Person & another. I Can’t Even Finish What i Need To Get For My Daughter Before Shes Here. I Need To Get Her Diapers & Wipes & A Bed Set/Crib Mattress🥺Idk How I Can Get The Stuff If My Ex Gives Half His Paycheck For Rent To Help My Mom & The Rest For Us To Eat.. My Mom Is Struggling To Maintain Herself Since She Has To Care For My Sister Who’s Disabled & Basically Has Sever Health Problems Where she Can Die Any Day💔💔She Needs To Pay Thousands For Her Surgeries Etc. I Feel So Broken Honestly All i Do Is Cry. My Goal Was To Finish High School From Job Corps (Which Still Is My Goal) & Become A Doctor. Give My Kids A Better Future & I Want To Help My Sister With Her Health Conditions🥺But Right Now I Feel Like I Failed As A Mom To Even Get What i Need Left For Babygirl. I’m Scared To Give Birth Since We Have Risks Of Both Passing Away, Emergency C Section, Her Becoming Blind , Having Learning Disability’s, Coming Out Eatly Etc. Guys I’m So Stressed🥺I Pray & I Remain Hopeful But I Am So Stressed.. Anyone Know What I Can Do To Get The Last Things I Need For My Daughter.? I Been Created A Registry In Amazon But I Don’t Have Any Family Members Except My Mom & Sister.. My Dad Was Never In My Life. I Don’t Have Friends😞I Been Trying To Work On Having Friends But My Depression & Anxiety Gets In The Way..

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