Okays soo what I’m about to tell y’all is really confusing and at the end of this you guys might be telling some things that are true and that i need to pay attention too. But here it goes…

Sooo my ex and I have been broken up for a year and a one month already, we were in almost a 2 year relationship (literally was 1 yr and 8 months and he fucking broke me when he wanted to ended things, I couldn’t eat or sleep or do anything, I was at my lowest because of him😭😭) but besides that we never stopped talking to each other and let me tell y’all, I was deeply in love with that man. We played around with each other and we kept going back and forth on weither or not we should get back together but like always one of us over thinks the situation and says,” no I’m not ready to be back in a relationship.” ⬅️ usually that’s him telling me that. So with my unchanged feelings for him he continued this push and pull thing with me.

Yes I have been on dates with other guys but tbh no matter how I tried to see if my feelings would alter with me dating I would still feel the same way. Until now, about 2 months ago, I have told him that I’m done with the games he’s playing but I’m fine being his fwb because it’s sex so it doesn’t mean much to me. So yay for me standing out for myself, but……

He tells me that his falling in love with me but doesn’t know what to do with that feeling, then asks me if we want to pretend dating each other but not to tell anyone a thing until we’re sure it’s a good thing. Me, losing feelings with him and a little bored, I said sure, which was a mistake because my feelings for him are low key coming back 😫😫, I get hit with that his family is setting him up with girls from his hometown in Mexico to be his next girlfriend/future wife. 😡

Soo I think that’s about it, but anyways, I’m trying not to invest too much into this because I don’t want to get hurt again. But no matter what I do to distance myself from him I always find myself wanting to go back to him. What should I do?