I love my husband and his family but they have a different way of showing love than I do and Idk what to do about it... Since I met my husband we have lived in his parents house or on their property (we paid for our part of the land) all the females in his family love drama though which is a huge reason why I've been begging my husband to move for the past 4 years. His mother is the worst though... I'm not perfect but have never once tried to wrong her. I do nothing but respect them and its like for a while she'll call me her favorite and her daughter but since I don't show love the same way she wants me to, I'm evil. I've always been the one to defuse the issues and drama she thinks up.. But this time I feel like I can't bc its like his whole family is against me now.

So it was my birthday a couple weeks ago and I was having a load of anxiety and feeling depressed that day, so I was feeling terrible literally physically jacked up bc of it.. Of course though last second my husband is like "I know you feel crappy but my mom is throwing you a party" I broke down y'all... I couldn't contain myself bc I was already crying non stop that day and my husband knew I was not in a state to be at a party of all places.. Obv I felt guilty as well bc they just wanted to be nice. It was also a joint party with another family member so regardless they were going to have some sort of get together whether I showed up or not.

My husband told his mom hours before the whole thing and before I even knew that he didn't think I would want to go to which she responded "idc bring her anyways" so that right there tells me she didn't care what I wanted in the first place so I knew this was going to go south quick.. I don't have a working phone rn and with my severe anxiety I can't step out the door most days so communication with her was not happening that day.. So instead of my husband telling the truth that I didn't feel good at all and was having off and on anxiety attacks all day he decided to lie and say " she and I got into it so she doesn't want to go" and then at the party when people asked about me he said "she's sick." So my mil texts my husband something along the lines of "she hates us and isn't apart of this family." And ever since that day she's been cooking for my husband every night, asking him to go chill with them every day.. I'M BEING PUNISHED FOR HAVING A BAD BIRTHDAY! Bc I didn't do what she wanted me to do on my birthday she shuns me from the family! I know she was trying to be nice in the moment I guess but wtf now I'm evil! Am I? I never intended to get myself kicked out of the family for having anxiety and depression like I feel sooo guilty...