Is it just me?

Anyone else really want to try for another baby because you really want a girl/boy because you already have 2 of the same gender but know that if you try you’ll just end up with a 3rd boy/girl and feel disappointed ? Not only that but I feel like crap for knowing I will feel disappointed. I have 2 boys and I really want a girl. My youngest is 6 months so it’ll be a while.. but still.