So I was discord chat with people who I’ve been friends with for 3 years. My ex introduced me to them (he’s in the discord too). I had a feeling they never liked me and only put up with me because I was dating said ex, but he always assured they adored me. I work night shifts as a barista, and got screamed at by a customer last night. I commented in the chat that this happened, and I wanted to cry but couldn’t because I was training someone. Everyone in the chat gives life updates all the time, its normal. Nobody ever bashes anyone (except me. Literally only me). The one girl friend I had commented, saying I needed to get over it. I just spiraled and blocked everyone in the group, and left the server without warning. She had private messaged me telling me I was attention seeking/wanting validation, and that I did it all the time, and she wasn’t going to put up with it anymore, deciding to call me out.

Now for the backstory: As soon as my ex cheated on me and we broke up, the group immediately turned on me and started shutting me out. I talk about my new boyfriend, they shut me down and degrade him. I talk about the adventures I go on to the mountains with my best friend (just hiking), they tell me I’m being stupid and reckless. I talk about my spontaneous drive to Oregon to clear my head a bit because reality was overwhelming me (it’s a 2 hour drive), they tell me yet again I’m wreck less and stupid. They think just because my ex is in the discord, I’m trying to always get his attention and piss him off by talking about my boyfriend (ex knows about him and told me he was HAPPY that I’m moving on). Maybe I just want friends despite everything? Maybe I want to give life updates like Everyone else without getting hated on? My ex has nothing to do with what I post. I don’t associate with him I don’t care about him. Half the time he’s not even active in the chat because he’s a super busy guy. So why treat me like garbage all of a sudden? Because I’m not associated with him anymore, and they can finally start being assholes to me without the backlash of my ex.

Fake personalities. I called it 3 years ago. They only put up with me because I was my ex’s girlfriend. It hurts... a lot...