Too much

So it’s 4am and I’ve been up crying for an hour - can’t stop. It’s just all too much trying to deal with a baby coming in the middle of a pandemic. Am I the only one feeling overwhelmed? We’ve been social distancing as much as possible (I still unfortunately have to go into work but it’s 100% masked and I mostly just hide in my office). Our plan was I would work from home two weeks before our due date to be as safe as possible. We just had a 15 minute baby parade shower for in town friends last weekend. Virtual one for next weekend for family. We sit at home as friends hang out. All of it, weve been so careful but tonight a plan for my husband to help his brother move (and see his family - including his mom who works retail) got pushed back from 6 weeks before our due date to 4 weeks before. Now I either have to accept he will still be in the “maybe I’m positive” phase of quarantine when I’m working from home in “deep quarantine” preparing for the birth or I have to be the asshole who says “please don’t help/see your family”. I know this isn’t that big of a deal I guess it just feels like we will have spent 9 months being super careful and the last month it’s like whatever, right before it really matters. I don’t know I am just trying to protect my son and not be an asshole. I am so sick of all of this extra planning and prepping. It’s not fair and I can’t help but wonder if I am being overly paranoid/cautious but it just feels like if I weren’t and any of us got Covid I would never forgive myself. Is anyone else being this careful? It feels like none of my friends and family are being this careful. Am I crazy?