Rant for FTM in 1st Trimester Hell

Camille

We found out early - 4 weeks - and for a week it was just slightly sore boobs and craving salty food and excitement.

Now I am 7 weeks and I feel like I’m perpetually hung over since week 5.

I’m extremely nauseated all day - and throw up once a day; can barely eat because everything seems gross; exhausted but struggle to sleep at night; and I’ve taken to wearing a sports bra day & night to try and support the extreme tenderness of “my” tits (they have gotten so full that they feel foreign to me and my normal bras don’t fit anymore). I am so bloated and have been eating high fiber & drinking lots of water to no relief. Yesterday I had a salad and every bite tasted so weird and sour/metallic that I couldn’t force it. We’ve had sex ONCE in the last two weeks and my orgasm actually caused me physical pain in my abdomen that I’ve lost my entire sex drive.

I’m in hell. My friends and other moms have all told me about these wonderful experiences and were glowing happy women enjoying every second of it. I don’t feel happy. I don’t look glowing. I am hungry ; my home is a mess; and I haven’t cooked a proper meal in 2 weeks.

My husband stayed home from work today to take care of me cause I just started crying this morning for how alone and tired and lazy and miserable I feel which is making me feel so guilty cause we wanted & prayed for this baby. He is amazing and supportive but I know he is worried. And I know in my heart that all of these symptoms are a good sign that our little bean is growing. I can’t be more happy that we were blessed enough to create a child together. I’d just like 1 day off a week from this right now.