How do I get him back...

Hi guys,

So this dude and I, we shall call him John, have dated for about 3 months. This is both our firsts serious relationship. He wanted to go SUPER SLOW and learn how to do things but wanted to learn it with me like very slow. We didn’t even kiss (I know) but we cuddled and shit and I truly had the worlds biggest feelings for him.

These past two weeks, I turned into a pms monster and became a person I didn’t recognize. This lead me to break up with him over TEXT. I don’t know why I did it, I was very hormonal and tried to see everything wrong in the relationship. I just assumed that since we wanted two completely different things that it wouldn’t work, like he wouldn’t want to go out and do things when I liked to do spontaneous shit, but I realize it wasn’t a big deal, bc we both liked being with each other.

I tried to explain to him I wasn’t myself in the text and that I didn’t mean anything I said and I regret it so much. Hes not responding to my texts and I know he’s hurt from what I did.

I sent him this text last night bc I needed to get it off my chest and he left me on read. I feel horrible and so sad:

“I know I need to give u space to breath and process things. I’m so sorry for the way I handled things. There’s a thing about me where I do spontaneous shit then immediately regret it after because my emotions take a hold of me. I just wanted to say, I understand if you don’t want to talk, I understand that things probably won’t be the same. I regret everything I said so much, it is fucking consuming me and I can’t stop thinking about it. We should’ve talked before I did what I did. I literally can’t tell you how much I regret it. I just wanted to let you know I care so much about you, probably more than you’d ever know. You were the person I went to for everything and I hate that I did what I did. I suck. I know. I’m not trying to make you feel bad for me or anything, I just needed to get it off my chest before I start crying again. But we do need to talk at some point, just you and me. I will be here when you are ready.”

How do I get to him? How do I show him he means the world to me? How do I get us to communicate again?