Omg keeping the fire going in the relationship after the baby

So I am about a week and a half pp and my husband and i have been having some strain in our relationship so yesterday I decided at 3 am after feeding the baby and getting him to sleep to surprise my husband with a blow job and hold shit it helped tonight he got on top of me and was sucking my milk out and I was giving him a handy god it was hot asf I can’t believe it was hot I thought it would be weird I’m so upset I can’t have sex rn