Rant! I stayed with my cheating husband.

Im so mad that I didn't take our 2 kids and leave him the first time. I stayed and thought everything was okay after while. Got pregnant a 3rd time after I told him to pull out 🙄 Dumb of me I know! Ofc he didn't pull out and i shouldn't have trusted it. And ofc he was back on dating sites and talking to prostitutes on social media again. Now I can't forgive him and Im a mean b*tch to him. Im about to have our baby in a few weeks and Im miserable af. He supposedly has given his life to God and gets upset that I haven't forgiven him, that im not submissive, etc. But how can I after all everything? He also says Im worse than him because when he first cheated I vented about it to another man. 😂. He's a freaking joke. And I know its wrong, but I lowkey hate him.

I just needed to vent. I cant vent to friends or family because I look so damn dumb now.