i feel like i’m losing myself
i feel numb
i’ve gotten so good a repressing unpleasant feelings
at keeping my mouth shut
at turning my thoughts and my feelings off
i feel lost
i’m scared to say anything
yelling scares me
confrontation scares me
i’m scared i’m going to get hurt
arguments and fights terrify me
i lay awake listens for sounds of yelling
i cry and cry
i cry instead of saying anything
i cry and then i cant say anything or i will cry harder
anger and fear and sadness make me cry
i feel like i’m always crying anymore
or trying to hold in tears
it’s not fair
why can’t we just be happy
i will never understand
i’m scared of relationships
or commitment of any kind
even my friends
i feel like i can’t really talk to anyone
i cant wait to be free
but i know i’ll never truly be free
that scares me too
i will never be free of the anger and the hatred and the hurt and the yelling
it follows me
it never stops
i cant escape it
i put on a front
i’m supposed to be the happy girl
the do everything daughter
the silly crazy friend
i’m scared i’m losing her
i don’t know who i am
i’m sad
i just want everything to be right
to be normal
to be happy and peaceful
i’m stressed
i’m scared
i cant do this
i’m so in my head all the time
always walking on egg shells
trying not to draw attention to myself
or cause a scene
i have to go
they’re yelling again
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