Hello I’m currently 29 weeks pregnant,

My ex of 3 years left me at 8 weeks pregnant & I never knew why bc he was so happy n talking about our future before he walked out on me w no explanation. It wasn’t til I was 18 weeks that I found out thru social media that he left me in the dust bc he had got into a relationship the same day he stormed out on me . I’ve delt w a lot this pregnancy from his family n gf trying to fight me from family calling me a hoe when they knew me n him was together at one point . He haven’t been here for me my whole 7 months & it hurts bc I try to forget n I try to heal but 7 months later & I still cry daily . He’s told me he didn’t care about me n my son , he could careless , he DONT care bc everything is my fault , he has another child on the way so he don’t care about us . Family made fake pages inboxing me , gf has made numerous Facebook post about me. As if I’m in the wrong , as if I wasn’t left unexpectedly so he could be w somebody else . He haven’t n DONT do nothing for my baby . When I DONT talk to him at all it’s my fault. But when I do he yells at me , tell me hateful things & even tells me everything is the way it is bc it’s my fault . I asked him for help he calls me bitter . I had made a 4d baby appointment 2 weeks ago to see my baby face n my sister posted the pictures on Facebook , he called me no more then 3 hrs later just to tell me he wants to see the baby 4d pictures but wants to make his own appointment for us to go ( he’s never even been to the baby’s regular appointment, couldn’t even tell you what hospital I’m delivering at ) Last week I ended up going , we didn’t speak at all , he just kept turning around looking at me , we kept our distance we was Atlease 5feet away from eachother , it was really awkward n made me kind of sad that somebody I loved so much had turned into a stranger . this was my first time seeing him since may 25th THATS the day he walked out on me n also got into another relationship ( I know this bc the gf constantly brags about it ) . He didn’t ask if the baby needed anything or if he had anything just stayed silent the whole session unless the baby was smiling then he would be smiling . But never said nothing to me the one time he did he had a attitude . We made another appointment for Saturday but I really don’t want to go I was thinking about just standing him up , I’m not over how he’s humiliated me n lied on me my whole pregnancy. I’m not over him leaving me n not telling me why , I’m not over the fact he’s playing family w someone else but leaving me to do it alone . I’ve cried most days these last 6 months just wishing I brought my son into a better situation & just wishing I knew how it felt to have somebody stick by your side while pregnant. Doing my pregnancy alone most definitely made me question love & sex . The gf have called me numerous times to try being friends w me n tell me everything he’s told her about me then turns around n brags on how she thinks she’s pregnant n what he do for her . Then goes to post on Facebook talking bout how she made him leave me for her n she took him . Shes 25 n I’m 20 . Isnt she too old for that ? What should I do ? What would you do ? Am I wrong if I don’t go to this appointment Saturday ? I also need encouraging words to help me get thru this . The way he done me just constantly plays back in my head , I ask god to heal my pain , heal my heart but I still remember everything like it was yesterday. I just want somebody to talk to I’m tired of crying over somebody I know who doesn’t give two flying fucks about me .