I yelled today... I got stressed and frustrated and impatient. I yelled a lot... it was a hard day and now I’m so emotional over the whole day I’ve been laying in bed for over an hour and can’t sleep thinking about it.

My kids (3 and 1.5) went to my moms. She stays about an hour away, but she got my girls some clothes and things so we went. It had already been a rough start... my youngest pooped and somehow got it on her face and belly and legs, I yelled. My mom has valuable things on the floor and easily in reach of toddler hands, I yelled. My mom me to take the girls outside to get some energy out. She stayed didn’t want to go outside too. My babies kept running in the neighbors yard where he was mowing grass, I yelled. My mom insisted on going to Walmart before dinner and my kids were already cranky and hungry. They screamed and crying the whole time, I yelled. We finally got to a restaurant and they were tired and hungry and didn’t want to cooperate or sit still, I yelled. Finally an hour after bedtime I was able to drop my mom off and head home. They were asleep before I turned off her road, I cried...

Today was hard... I feel like the absolute worst mom. I hope tomorrow is better and they forgive me for all the yelling today...❤️