(Read first) Have kids

I know even if we make alot of plans but eventually what God wants for us happens.

So i am 23 years old and my husband is 34 years old. We had our first baby on Jan 2020. Of course we want him to have siblings but i dont think i am ready yet.

My pregnancy went so smooth and my delivery as well.. but postpartum hit me so hard to the point that i still sometimes feel worthless and the worst mother. Which I know i am and please dont say i am not because i know i am. I get angry easily and not sleeping enough makes it harder. Plusthe fact thatmy husband goes to work 9:30 and comes back at 9:30 and works 6 days a week. So i feel lonely usually.

I love children but i am not sure if i can handle it, i dont want to have another baby when i still feel like i am not doing well with my first already.

I think max for us is 3 but i also dont want to have themso late because of my husband's age. Pleaseee ladies what are your thoughts ?

Thank you alll💗🌸💗