PPD after emergency csection

So about 3 months ago I gave birth to my daughter. Unfortunately, there were some complications and I had to get an emergency csection. The general anesthetic used didn’t work on me even though I had an epidural. They wanted to put me to sleep but I didn’t want to miss my baby’s first cry. So unfortunately I also felt everything. Recovery was horrible. I’m still going through some things physically. Emotionally and mentally, I’m a wreck. And no one else I know of understands because they’ve never had this happen, I just need to talk to someone that’s been through the same thing and can help me through it. If no one can, that’s okay. Thank you though.