It is honestly hard to believe we lost our baby back in July. That and everything that happened after the loss still seems unreal. I don’t always think about it like I used to but sometimes I have my emotional moments still. For example, I was somehow triggered while talking to my sister and newborn nephew on FaceTime. I started crying and felt like such a shitty person for crying about my nephew but I think the reality that I should be pregnant and preparing to meet my baby decided to kick in again. Our kids were supposed to be best friends like us and it fucking sucks. My sister didn’t know I was crying (thank god) because the last thing I want is to have her feeling bad for me and walk on eggshells again since she was still pregnant when we had our loss.

This post is just some random thoughts. Don’t mind me.