Advice please? Confused on what this means

My ex and I broke up like 5-6 months ago, we dated for 4 years but the last year was so so so bad that i genuinely felt so happy and free when he was out of my life finally.

I rarely think about him, the only time I think about him is when I think of the bad things and how it made me feel. He made me so insecure and said not very nice things to me, so sometimes those things pop up into my thoughts and I get sad, but only bc I remember how those things made me feel and I almost feel that pain again.

Does this mean I’m not over him?

I’m asking bc I’ve been getting close to another guy recently and we’ve been talking and had some intimate moments and I don’t want to get involved if I’m not over my ex.

I hate my ex. He treated me so bad, and I don’t ever think about what he’s doing or how he’s doing or anything, I just think about those bad moments sometimes.

For example, my ex made me feel really bad about my body, even days I was just a bit more bloated, told me I need to eat better and go to the gym. Today I’m just at home in leggings and a tank top and I am a bit more bloated and I didn’t think anything of it and was ok with it but randomly I remembered that if I was still with my ex, I’d probably be crying rn bc he would make me feel gross and bad about myself. But then thinking about all those times he made me cry bc of my body, made me cry bc I hated that I felt that way. Idk if that makes sense.

I want to be over him. Idgaf about him.