Hating yourself in photos/pregnancy weight gain depression

So hear me out ladies. I had an early baby shower on Saturday and I am 22 weeks five days. Ive gained 15 pounds.. at first I didn’t think anything of it but now that I got my pictures back from my shower I am mortified. I spent the whole day crying, in some pictures I can’t even tell that it’s me. I don’t feel like myself and I’m really struggling. I know this is stupid because my husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 3 years so this is our miracle. I should be grateful and so happy for the weight gain but I can’t get out do my head. The only things I see on here are women who have gained maybe 3 pounds by this point so it even harder. Just trying to vent and see if anyone feels the way I do..

I didn’t think depression would come until after the baby was born or even at all..