Hi , my name is Maisey and I’m 14 . Brace yourselves this is gonna be a long one .

You know when your in high school and when you have a crush it’s like the biggest thing in the world , I used to feel like that , honestly i has a new crush every few weeks . There was this one guy who I never really used to think about (let’s call him Brad) until one right I had this dream where he saved me from someone that came to kill me , all of a sudden I saw him in a new light , all my friends thought it was just another one of mr crushes , and tbh so did i . One of my friends was actually dating brads friend and she told brads friend about this dream I had about him and of course he told Brad . He didn’t really care much which lead me to think it wasn’t really going to go anywhere , like all of my crushes . Until I got his snap. I text him and was like hey I’m so sorry that you found out about this dream I had , I’m really embarrassed I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable with anything. He said he didn’t and it was cool. We then started to talk. We were in the talking stage for a few months , the be said he didn’t really want a relationship in school , I agreed with him and we stopped talking . At this point my country was a few months into our lockdown . I went about my life , I mean sure , I was a little upset but not really anything major . Then when they decided to open schools again I was seated behind him in English , we would talk in class him me and his friend that sat next to me , we would talk about nothing and everything , until our teacher told us to shut up . He started texting me again a few weeks into being back at school and it felt like old times , until it got more than that , he would call me beautiful and we’d talk about our futures he told me he couldn’t cry and I told him he can feel whatever he wants when he’s with me , one day I had this overwhelming feeling to tell him how much I liked him about 3 weeks into talking again , he told me he’d never felt like what I make him feel like before and that I made him cry actual tears for the first time in a good 5 years . He told me I’m perfect and he wishes we could have met in the future so things wouldn’t be so complicated. I would seriously say I love this guy . He says he’s scared what will happened between us in the future because doesn’t want to hurt me , he says all he wants is to graduate and then be free to be with me . I tell him what about college ,what about our careers , we both don’t know , I tell him all I want is to be with you . He tells me “baby, there’s nothing I want more , but it’s complicated” I tell him we need to try , we can’t just give up on whatever this is , I say I’ve never felt like this before , all my damn crushes and this is so so different , he says he needs some time . That was two days ago and I miss him already , I feel like a pathetic inexperienced child . I don’t know what to do with myself. School started again this week after half term (semester break I think ) but I haven’t gone back because I have to isolate . But I go back next week and I’m scared to face him and the reality of what put future would be . I’m really scared . I just need some advice please if that okay .

He’s 15 and I’m 14 (as I’m now realising I’ve already said, oops ) , 15 in April his birthday is September . we live about 10 minutes away from each other and attend the same school . Our country is going back into lockdown at the end of this week apart from schools so I wouldn’t be able to see him outside of school but I would seriously say I love him .

Ughhhh I know , I know I’m pathetic but I need some help please . Thankyou