How do I finger myself without pain?

I am a virgin and want to get used to the feeling of a dick inside, so I thought fingering would be a good place to start as if I can’t take that how can I take a larger object? But it hurts so bad, I can’t even wear tampons my god😂 I’m a be a virgin for life at this rate, and I am always aroused and very lubed up and relaxed, but it just really hurts! Please can some of you experienced ladies help me out?

I’m doing this because I really feel that I want to have sex with my man when he returns back from visiting family in Sweden and he has not pressured me and it was predominantly my idea.