Depression During Pregnancy

So I’m having a bit of depression during my pregnancy. I just entered my fifth month and honestly my child is the reason I smile every day. It’s like she saves the day whenever I think about her as I rub my belly. Is it normal to not want to be bothered by the father? Like he’s a great guy and if I need something, he does it. Part of me feel like I wanna be alone. I don’t feel beautiful and sometimes hearing it from him would be nice, but he doesn’t say it. I’ve told him about it and he said he didn’t realize he had to say it occasionally. I might be over doing it. I feel myself getting irritated by the father to the point he can just go. I hate feeling that way. He and I were raised very differently so he’s very nonchalant, don’t show much emotion, don’t care about non important things versus me I care about anyone close to me, I express my emotions, if you think it’s important, I’ll support you no matter what. He hurt me a few months ago, at first I didn’t think about it, but my pregnancy hormones make me relive that feeling a lot and I hate it. I really keep to myself now. I also beat myself up because I’m unemployed due to covid. Not a lot of places are hiring pregnant women so that’s my luck. I just want to be successful and make sure my baby is forever good. Give my child the life I wish I had. Being unemployed, I feel I’m letting her down.

So ladies, any tips, advices would be welcomed. I don’t believe in taking medication for depression with all the ridiculous side effects. But thank you in advance!