i don’t really have anyone to text or vent to so i’m just gonna vent on here. soooo i literally just found a suicide note that i wrote in 2017, 3 days after my birthday , and i just completely broke down right now. i was in such a bad place at the time and i think it’s so crazy that i am still here alive and ,not completely happy, but so much happier than i used to be , and it’s just so mind blowing but yah. just wanted to let that out :)