On the 10th of November, 14dpo, I took a test:

I was over the moon! I couldn’t wait for my husband to come home! I left him a little surprise...

He was shocked that he’d ‘done it again’.

“Thank God,” He said, “I was going to tell I don’t want to keep trying anymore.”

I was taken aback, but happy, because we didn’t need to anyway. We had our baby on the way. He never told me why we wouldn’t have kept trying. It had only been 2 cycles!

That night, I started bleeding brown.

I Googled for hours, and all forums said pink and brown was usually ok, so I went to sleep.

Unfortunately, I woke up in red blood. The whole day, I constantly checked my pad. There was drops, sometimes clots. I was starting to worry. Again, I took to Google...

Come this morning, I decided to take the last test in the pack...

The line is still there, but it’s not getting darker...it’s fading.

The bleeding is getting worse...

I am a mess. No-one understands. My Mum said we can just keep trying. But I haven’t told her what my husband said. My husband doesn’t even seem to care that I’m devastated about our loss. He didn’t comfort me or anything yesterday. He went on like nothing was wrong. I was crying...and he was telling me about how great his day at work was...

Thank you if you read all of this long post. Any help (tips on what to do next, for eg) would be much appreciated.