I just needed somewhere to vent as i have no one i can talk to, ive thought about killing myself a few times now however i dont think id ever carry jt out like ive wrote notes to my family but i just want my pain to be over i hate myself and i cant do it anymore my nana passed away in 2016, my bestfriend passed in 2017, and my grandad died in 2018, now my best friend left me because j wasnt good enough and found better people i cry nealry eveyday until i go numb idk what to do anymore and i dont want to tell my parents