Messed up stitches

3 months PP and still can’t get the penis in at all. Like it’s not happening. I took a look and it LOOKS SO BAD. I had an episiotomy, a tear, and vulva repair. Idk if they butchered the stitches, or if it didn’t heal correctly or if they stitched too much but from what I see there’s a gap at the bottom of the vagina in the stitches near episiotomy. Also like the vaginal hole is little to non existence 🥴 I have an apt this week to get it looked at. But I’m nervous they will have to cut it or redo it or fix part of it and I’m so nervous. That was such a painful recovery. Anyone go through something like this? I’m stressing 😭