Best Friend's Baby

I am still on this fertility journey for a year now and yesterday my best friends son was born. I feel terrible about it but it really makes me sad. I feel terrible for being so depressed about such a joyous occasion. This fertility stuff is hard and people who haven't struggled don't get it. I'm hoping when I finally hold him I'll feel less sad about it and get over holding other peoples babies, especially this little bundle. I can be sad for me and happy for my friend. Any advice?