Feeling so lost

I honestly feel like my husband hates me more and more every day now.

He goes off to work and im home basically sitting in silence all day it seems like.. trying not to murder the damn dogs and anyone who decides it's a good idea to knock on the front door to sell me Bible goodies and politics..

( its not )

But then he comes home and jm just frazzled, hungry, tired, exhausted from the thought of doing the same thing every day and not being able to do the minimum around the house.

Well I get a nice routine of sorts going during the day, and he comes home and pardon my French but fucks its all up somehow. I like to rock her right after she eats so she can drift off and she stays nice and calm during the day. I offer this advise to him and I get... ugh ok! And then nothing. He sits there on the couch with her while she is just screaming her head off.

Now I'm trying to actually get her to sleep in her room in her crib at night.. and when he wants to just take over when he gets home.. he always falls asleep with her. So I try to make it very clear to put her in the crib when she falls asleep.. or to wake me up if he feels like he's getting tired. He just ignores me. Completely ignores me. I understand I'm being controlling but the safety of her just falling asleep on him scares the shit out of me. I cant sleep.. and then its like he resents me and says you say thensame thing over and over again .. and keep pushing and pushing and how I dont trust him....

Then stop falling asleep with her!!!! Rock her cute tush to sleep and put her down. Not the fucking hard.

He says I'm a bitch basically every day now. Im exhausted!! Im sorry I'm snappy about how I want things done and making a face when he continues to be loud. Im sorry guys this is just a rant and I just feel so alone in this one. And guilty for I guess being mean? Or a bitch? To him. Im really not meaning to. Ugh