I am so stupid!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️😭

So here is a story for you guys! I’ll try and make it short. So I have been with my boyfriend for 7 years, and we even have a son. Since day one, my bf would let me use his phone when mine died or when he has better service and stuff like that. Well for the past couple weeks, he has been a bit suspicious, he just wouldn’t let me use his phone, kept keeping it from me, and stuff like that. My brain 🧠 starts saying, he is cheating!🚨 you must find out what he is hiding!! So I ask him if I can use his phone real quick and he says no! And walked away..... what am I supposed to think!! Well one day it just started bugging me completely and I went through his phone( yes I know it’s wrong, invasion of privacy and etc...) but I saw something!!!! I saw that he was texting my best friend (me and her have been best friends since we were little girls!!) Anyway my first thought was, oh hell no!! He is not cheating on me with her!! She is like a sister to me!! So many emotions started to build up! I start crying even though I haven’t seen anything bad! But as I am crying, I was trying to decide if to open the messages or not 🤦🏻‍♀️ and I did!!! I will regret it for ever!! It turns out my best friend has been helping my boyfriend plan a way to propose!!! 😭😭😭😭 and as I was going through the messages I discovered that he sent her a pic of the ring and now I know what it looks like!! It’s beautiful!!! 💍🥰 but now I feel so guilty!!!! And I am a bad actress!!! How will I act surprised when the day comes!? Now I am gonna be paranoid that it can happen any day! 🤦🏻‍♀️😭😭😭😭 i found this out about a week ago and I am losing it!! 😭😭😭😭😭 excuse my ranting but I can’t tell anyone else!! 😭😭😭😭 I need to taking acting classes! Anyone know about classes titled “how to cry on que 101???” 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ the worst part is, I took a screen shot of the ring and I can’t stop staring at it when he isn’t around 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️