i wish i had a close relationship with my mom. i turn 19 in a couple days and i’ve been dealing with chronic depression since i was 14. shes a great provider but shes not the mother i need emotionally. shes not a nurturer. she wasnt there for my first heart break, i cant even remember the last time we’ve hugged. ive had to learn a lot of things on my own but i’ve always had clothes on my back and food on the table. but i dont blame her because she wasn’t taught how to be that type of mother.