The living room is too empty and my roommate is an introvert (till this year I lived with my parents and siblings:so never being alone/ sharing a room and noisy house, now I live in a new town in a house with 2 roommates who are now dating (he sleeps in basically a basement suite but it’s same entrance , shared laundry , and he visits with her often and sort of / sometimes me so like half a roommate)

Using my colouring book on the staircase landing makes sense because then I feel way less alone as it’s a spot where there usually isn’t people (the living room feels empty like I expect other people to be there and there is spots for people to be), it’s hidden (not exposed/ empty feeling) , it’s somewhere other people could be (like my room is a place to be alone hidden but then I know I will stay alone) , people don’t stay here so it’s “supposed to be” somewhere where no one is.

I don’t want to be alone so I’m somewhere where I don’t feel as alone and other people might find me.... but then they might ask questions like why and judge my decision so maybe I don’t actually want to be found I just want to feel like I could be found??? Also why do I feel like I need people around to feel comfortable when the things I want to do (reading,art...)are things where I wouldn’t be interacting with the people around me??? So basically I want the presence of another person in the room but to be doing separate things (like me reading, they are watching tv or reading or....)