Adoption/Abortion/Keep

I’m 17 years old, i live with my mom. I’ve been through so much in my life. Just in July i was pregnant and got an abortion that i regretted so much. I’m now pregnant again about 6wks by the same guy and i don’t know what to do! I haven’t told my mom or anyone. I am not considering abortion 💔 but adoption is in mind because so many families would love to have a child. I don’t wanna seem selfish or anything but i wouldn’t be able to give my child the life he/she is deserving of and that’s what i see as selfish. I can keep my child and trust in God to make a way. The father said he doesn’t want/need a child right now because his life is just about to start (graduating in May) i graduate 05/2022 and i understand that but we made a decision to have sex. We can’t give our child the life he/she is deserving of. I don’t want my child to grow up wondering why my parents didn’t keep me? Or i wish i had another family because I’m fatherless.

Ugh....😢😢😢😢Just please give me some words of advice, i really need it. I can’t stop crying. My heart hurts 💔💔😪😓