Lonely & pregnant

Jaemye • Just here to give and receive POV, opinions, etc from you lovely ladies 🌻

So I’m 7 months pregnant now and it’s been a pretty lonely 7 months. I know I’m not technically alone, my family is very present and in my corner but it seems i have support from everyone BUT my SO. He doesn’t seem to understand that I’m lonely as hell. I’m out of work due to an injury so I’m home all day and I can’t go out really due to COVID. You would think that would inspire him to make an effort to be here for me but that’s not the case. He works long hours so I barely get any quality time during the week and once the weekend is here I see him so he can come home and shower then he’s right back out the door to go out, drink, and have fun and normally doesn’t come back home til 4-5 am. I’m not sure if he’s just blind/dumb or plain doesn’t care. I’m tired of crying and feeling the way I do. I’d be wrong to seek comfort outside the relationship but I’m also not receiving the things I need within it right now. I’m not sure what to do anymore. I’ve spoken on my feelings and it seems to just go in one ear and out the other. I’m getting to a point where I don’t want him around me at all. In my mind if you can’t spare 2 weekends out the month to just be with me especially during this really trying time then don’t spare me any time at all. But once I shut down it’s “oh what’s wrong why are you acting like that blah blah”. I’m just tired of it. If I’m going to feel lonely I might as well actually be alone.