Disconnected from second pregnancy

Were/are you as sentimental with your 2nd pregnancies as your first?

When I was pregnant with my first child, I kept every lil momento including stupid stuff..

I'm 12w with my second and dont feel any desire to collect anything. Other than the ultrasound pics of course.

I dont even want to take pics of my belly.

With my first, I kept my hand on my belly from the first bfp til delivery.

I dont want to rub my belly this time around even tho I just popped.

With my first, I called him Squish. That was our nickname for him even though we had his official name picked out very early.

Second baby has no name.

Instead of excitement, all I feel is fear and dread that something is wrong. I really hope that all this is the result of hormones and it will get better.

This baby was planned and is very much loved and wanted, but I just feel so disconnected this time around and I hate myself for it.

Is this normal? .