When does it stop..

My ex and I broke up end of nov and I can’t stop thinking about him.. it still feels like the first day.. I miss him so much but I’m also mad that we’re even going through this. How do I accept this and move forward?

With previous relationships I’d dwell for a week and I was better, way better. With this one I wanted it to work so bad that I can’t accept it?.. there’s times I find myself saying “I wish he’d text Me”..

I guess I’m still lingering on to hope? And I hate myself for this