I’m so over this

I just feel like I ruined my life by having kids. I love them but I feel like I should’ve waited/done it with someone else. I miss my life before kids. I miss me. I’m really hoping this is just pregnancy hormones and I can find myself again because I don’t like me right now. I don’t like me like this. I just feel so dumb for being in this situation and I don’t see a way out. I dug myself into a hole and I’m so scared of what’s on the other side. I’ve ALWAYS wanted to be a mom just not like this.